I don't
honestly think it was much my fault--and it can't be helped.
And nobody else in the family matters. The only person who does
matter is Elizabeth. And I quite see that she can't stay here
indefinitely. She told me she promised Desmond she would stay
as long as she could. Just at present, of course, she is the
mainspring of everything on the estate. And they have actually
made her this last week Vice-Chairman of the County War
Agricultural Committee. She refused, but they _made_ her. Think
of that--a woman--with all those wise men! She asked father's
leave. He just looked at her, and I saw the tears come into her
eyes.
'As to Beryl and Aubrey, he was here last Sunday, and she spent
the day with us. He seems to lean upon her in a new way--and
she looks different somehow--happier, I think. He told me, the
day after Desmond died, that Dezzy had said something to him
that had given him courage--"courage to go on," I think he
said.
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